Happy Valentine's Day!!!!!!!

Hey Sweetie,

If you're reading this - then yeah :P Its already the 14th of Feb. Happy valentine's day darling!
I know you think that I don't care about Valentine's day - that I think that its a corporate mafia that has created the day to control people and take our money :) :)

I still feel that! :) :)

But I realized, really early on - that it mattered to you. And in relative fashion, it matters to me. Am I romantic? Hell no!  I can barely pull a thought out of my head that can be deemed romantic.

At the same time - do I love you? Absolutely. Completely. Hopelessly.

You're my darling, my love, my vaava-kutty. And if I could do all those things in the last few weeks just so that I could be romantic - 'just for you love', couldn't I do something for you for Valentine's day? Sure I could...

So here it is...<edited and removed> And I hope my adorable little kid sister did her bit and you got the chocolates too :) :)

I hope you like them both. Remember our conversation about the chocolates? Your favorite? I hope you like those too...

I wanted to say a few things to you sweetheart, you are not what I wanted in life but you're definitely what I needed. Being with you, thinking about you, remembering our conversations, sensing the way you feel about me. All makes me wonder how amazing it is that we are the way we are... Its almost magical.

It makes want to believe in things that I never did before... It makes we want to do things that I never wanted to do before... It makes me love in a way I never knew I could before... So darling, today - you're my Valentine. Next week, you'll be by Fiancé. Three months from now - you'll be my wife.

I'm going to love every moment of this journey and although I may not say it to you like I have today - Always remember. I love you. More than I could ever portray with a blog of all my IICs in the last 45 days :) :) :)

For ever and ever...

PS: This post is set to automatically publish itself at midnight on Feb 14th :P
PPS: Read the rest of the blog bottom up. Go down to the bottom - Jan 1 and read backwards to Jan 31 :P
PPS: Do I get some points? ;) 

The best laid plans

Sigh, I sit on the edge of my bed (8:40PM)
Recounting the events gone by
I smile softly - recollect moments
Joy of a plan come together..my...

It'd been weeks since I began,
Planning the day with events
The distraction, small surprise,
Followed by your shocked face

Map each little move one-by-one
The peanuts - silly distraction
Little muffin rounded up by cake
Leading up to the closing piece :)

I sit back after a loooong day gone by
And it sinks in, why all effort is naught
To see your face, ecstatic with love
Again, Aye - I shall do it all over again

I see...

There you sit just inches away,
Our eyes do meet, soft - slow
I look away for a second quick
Look back - sure, you're there :)

As you speak, I see your lips part
Your smile, I see now - as radiant
I sink lower in my chair, so slight
Smiling back, and yes now I blink

I munch down quick, eager to get done
For I felt no hunger pester me no more
All I wanted - is spend an extra moment
Just look at you, and see, and more I see. :)

The Drive...

As you walked towards me, face aglow(11:41PM)
I stare at you with a grin, slowing time
The hours of traffic that I endured
Was worth it all, for that face of love

I held your hand, perfect fingers aligned
Held my breath - to hear yours so soft
Touch my cheek,  blink and time comes back
Every image, glance - cherish shall I

The songs we played, the roads we drove
Thoughts that flowed, time froze outside
The time was short, but love was naught
Your memories leave me tingling inside

You draw from me a person unseen
I knew not I could express my mind
In the way that your presence bides
Love, my love - I murmur soft (11:55PM)

Love me like you do...

I look back at you, across the room.
The eyes lock, glow ever so slight
We smile - again a lot said, unsaid
The world fades - out of focus


You speak, words softly leave your lips,
I look back at you, time still surreal
It takes me a moment to make words form
For I could't take my eyes off your face


You tug at my strings when you speak
My heart skips a beat each time you smile
I cannot to this day believe its truly real
My love, that you - love me like you do...

Complete

I listen to your voice, picture your face (9:34PM) 4-Jan-2016
Now at ease, the smile comes through
As I picture your face, I listen - grin
Somehow, your voice - makes me calm


No inhibition,doubt - no fear anymore
Its clicked. For even I could find love
I close my eyes and your face I see
Wait I now, the day you and I are we


I fear not whether I am giving too much
For each word say, you match with one
Its like for every blink, smile and word
Brings us closer, destined together :)


Sometimes I look back at the past few days
For it feels not like days that we've known
Its like you're an angel from yonder unknown
Come to set me free - make me complete  (10:19 PM) 

Sleepless in Bangalore

I lie awake looking at the ceiling… (1:12 AM) 2-Jan-2016

Wondering why sleep still eludes

I close my eyes and all I can see

Are your eyes, face, your smile

I perk my ears and all I can hear

Is your laugh, breath, your sigh

For a second, I lay sightly perturbed

Feeling, this sense of helplessness

Then I remember the look on your face

The trust, the faith - doubt fades away

I smile, doze off my eyes looking into yours

And there - I see, hidden softly inside - am I (1:14)AM